So it’s July 27, 2010. I gave birth to my beautiful baby boy Preston on July 6. I wouldn’t take change anything for the world and I have a great life, but I just can’t understand why I can’t stop crying. I honestly never knew postpartum depression even existed. It’s hard enough that I have fibromyalgia and I am recovering from giving birth, but I am an emotional wreck right now and my fibro fog has kicked into high gear. I can’t think straight, I am exhausted, I feel huge, and to top it all off my boyfriend doesn’t understand at all. He’s just like be happy. It’s mind over matter. I wish it was. I mean I am a happy person. There is no reason whatsoever for me to be depressed. I don’t even want to get out of bed sometimes. It’s like I have a list of things that I want to do and of things that need to get done and day by day goes by and none of these things seem to be getting done. It is so frustrating. It is even more frustrating when I fibromyalgia and I am in so much pain my brain isn’t even working right. I have major short term memory loss and everything is foggy to me. I feel stupid. I know I’m not. I have an extremely high IQ, but right now I can’t even do simple math. It is amazing to me what your body will go through to give birth. It is definitely worth it though. My baby boy is amazing, I just wish I could enjoy him more. So in order for me to do this, I am going to have to give in and make a doctor’s appointment next week and see what we can do. I am sure that they will just end up putting me on an anti-depressant drug. I am very curious to see if these work; at least until my hormones go back to normal. I have never felt so completely out of whack before. I would like to know what else there is out there to do maybe instead of taking a pill. If anyone has any suggestions, I would be very grateful. Thanks for listening. This is Jennifer, your fibromite for life!